AHHHH 1 of the wost days of my life wednesday! I hate it and idk if i can handle much more but then i think about that verse that says that GOD wont put more on you than you can handle...idk how my life can shatter into a million pieces in one night but it did and I'm so scared bout it!
....sorry for the little outburst there but i just ad a spaz moment there...lol any way I'm gonna tell you wat has led up to that moment.....
ok well first the sun. b4 ester my dad comes to church and waltz's in like there ain't nothing in the world wrong...well everyone is hugging him an shaking his hand b4 service that morn. well then he walks in and pops right down on the front row where he used to sit when he was pastor....well the message that was preached that morn.(was by Jerry McClain he is import later in story) was right to my dad an he says amen like he is ok and every thing well everyone is happy and in the spirit and stuff well i could not feel the spirit or even get focused on GOD cause of him!.....well after church some one comes up to me and says i no how hard this is...well that was all i could take i melted down i started bawling my eyes out (i still cant even look at my dad without disgust for that incident) well then later that night was the pastor election and it was to vote in or out Jerry McClain well we had been having WONDERFUL services under him....well we get to voting an he doesn't get voted in well us kids are DEVASTATED bout that and i was sooo mad (i could have used other choice words but that wouldn't be very GOD like)! Well then i find out my friends aunt died and she is crying on my shoulder and making me wanna cry even more! Well then wed. comes (dun DA Dunn lol) well we have a business meeting instead of the usual well then one of my dearest and then most important to me resigns an leaves the church well i start crying but not that hard(yet) an then one thing leads to another an several other people leave an then other people say there are leaving soon an by that time I'm sobbing uncontrollably especially when i go to hug my friend well i take my other friend an we go out an i try to explain to her how much they mean to me......Well allot of people don't no how much that church an the people in it mean to me an I'm gonna attempt to tell you ......
you guys an the preaching (an GOD of coarse) are Wat get me through the day each day...i have so much heartache an turmoil that y'all don't realize but on wed. when i see you y'all give me encouragement an sooo much more thats why i took it so hard when the church split i mean you guys though you had it bad when you were a kid well try walking a mile in my shoes well have a good week bye
....sorry for the little outburst there but i just ad a spaz moment there...lol any way I'm gonna tell you wat has led up to that moment.....
ok well first the sun. b4 ester my dad comes to church and waltz's in like there ain't nothing in the world wrong...well everyone is hugging him an shaking his hand b4 service that morn. well then he walks in and pops right down on the front row where he used to sit when he was pastor....well the message that was preached that morn.(was by Jerry McClain he is import later in story) was right to my dad an he says amen like he is ok and every thing well everyone is happy and in the spirit and stuff well i could not feel the spirit or even get focused on GOD cause of him!.....well after church some one comes up to me and says i no how hard this is...well that was all i could take i melted down i started bawling my eyes out (i still cant even look at my dad without disgust for that incident) well then later that night was the pastor election and it was to vote in or out Jerry McClain well we had been having WONDERFUL services under him....well we get to voting an he doesn't get voted in well us kids are DEVASTATED bout that and i was sooo mad (i could have used other choice words but that wouldn't be very GOD like)! Well then i find out my friends aunt died and she is crying on my shoulder and making me wanna cry even more! Well then wed. comes (dun DA Dunn lol) well we have a business meeting instead of the usual well then one of my dearest and then most important to me resigns an leaves the church well i start crying but not that hard(yet) an then one thing leads to another an several other people leave an then other people say there are leaving soon an by that time I'm sobbing uncontrollably especially when i go to hug my friend well i take my other friend an we go out an i try to explain to her how much they mean to me......Well allot of people don't no how much that church an the people in it mean to me an I'm gonna attempt to tell you ......
you guys an the preaching (an GOD of coarse) are Wat get me through the day each day...i have so much heartache an turmoil that y'all don't realize but on wed. when i see you y'all give me encouragement an sooo much more thats why i took it so hard when the church split i mean you guys though you had it bad when you were a kid well try walking a mile in my shoes well have a good week bye
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